I’m a night owl. I stay up late during the week, usually because I can’t log off Tumblr or because I have to watch HGTV until it switches over to paid programming at 2am.
I stayed up late Monday night to do research for a phone interview I had on Tuesday morning. Also I stayed up late because my unemployment claim was denied and I fretted about that.
I didn’t start fretting in full until last night. The phone interview was just okay. I think the first bit was fine, but the technical questions in the second bit just threw me a little and then I got off the phone wondering what, if anything, I knew anymore.
When I went to bed last night, I had just started reading posts from Reasons I Love My Mother. Have you read it? It’s so good. Chris Kelly is in the process of listing 365 reasons why he loves his mother, Joanne. His mother, who passed away last year after battling cancer for two years.
I tried to fall asleep thinking good thoughts for Chris and his family but those awful thoughts (no money! no job!) about my own future kept my mind racing and spinning for an hour or two. And when I woke up this morning, those thoughts were back in my head.